Smoking

Abstract Smoke Photography
Originally uploaded by MillionSwords

Something strange has happened to me recently, I smoke, I don't really like the fact that I do, I don't like that I get something from it. I have tried to give up many times, Succeeded once for about a year when I had my son. But I always missed it. Because I was in agonising pain from a trapped nerve in my shoulder my GP prescribed gapapentin this is a recognised and authorised treatment for nerve pain. It seemed to work, my pain is much better. What is interesting is that it seems to have reduced my craving for my next hit of nicotine, but what is even more interesting and strangely annoying is that it has also removed my enjoyment of my occasional smoke. I don't smoke heavily but have always enjoyed it's stress relieving qualities and the comfort of the habit that a non-smoker would be hard pressed to understand. Although I should welcome this opportunity to quit I find my self annoyed and faintly irritated by this.